Ahh, the bloody lil finger

Yeaps...
I was careless,
And that was how I ended up with a bloody lil finger,
that refused to stop bleeding,
until... after an hour,
oh no! that's dangerous, I don't have diabetes do I?
It was pretty bloody though... plasters been changed too...
See the blood on the plaster.. oo-la-la

Ok, not funny..
=p

Some can't take seeing blood, just take it as tomato,
but they still can't.. hmm

Getting sooooooo jealous

How come rich people get to be so successful?
From one generation to the other...
Hard work to easy money... passed down generations..
wow!
So unfair.. I want!
If one has money, everything else is possible, whether to start a new business... or something completely different...
damn it...
money, popularity, networks...
man, I wished I was more sociable...
How can I ever do business with just a small group of friends or small network?

What is this about?
Well.. just found out that one of my friends... actually teamed up with her other siblings to open a business.... I want! Lucky for them... their father is someone big....
Sadly, my siblings and I are all doing different things...
and I dont even have money to set up one business..

Now, I want to be my own boss... where do I start?
Perhaps one day I'll be even more successful than them.. hahaha! I'm just kidding, that will never come...

hmm where's all the time gone

Latest update:-
I'm so not in the mood...

No idea why..
stressed up...
perhaps..

The forgotten one

I went to certify my passport documents today and the the pharmacist was nice enough not to charge me for it... hmm, I think she recognised me already.. haha, she just said "dont worry about it" =)
Ok, so I was free for the rest of the day after that, knowing nothing to do at all...
and I decided to go eye shadow shopping... I then head to myers. Ok, I haven't really wore eye shadow before because well, I just dont feel like it and there's no time or occassion to wear it.. so I'm always plain and dull.... but Sze's wedding is coming up and she asked if we wanted a make up do... and err.. Ying and I was abit scared of what it would turn out like.... 1) I dont have nice eyes... no double eye-lid or what-so-ever...
haha, the make up artist said a few colours would suit me... but it did not...
I WAS BORED! what more can I do?
.... play with colours....

yuck... yuck... yuck...

well, just waiting for my results now, and then PR PR....
argh urgh argh urgh.... then job hunting again..

It sucks...

I feel like the underdog...
I feel being used only when I'm needed...
I guess I'm not important...

done

University exam's are over.
I'm done with my bachelor!
Ahem, unless I did not pass and have to re-take... *no, no no no!, I think I'll be fine* *I hope*
Wow, oh boy, how time flies...
mehhh, IELTS in 1 1/2 weeks... I dont want to do it =(
Oh well... although exams are over, I'm still not free and easy..
Infact, I'm under a lot more stress.
=(

Questions

She's asking questions, --> how will I be after this...
I think I loose just a little bit of me...
Funny how this takes place from time to time...
Oh I'm asking questions,
How will I be when it comes down to the end?
Dawn is closing in,
I can feel the change... the change you made in me,
I am now a better person perhaps,
We will be one of a kind together,
I love the memories we have built together,
so sweet =)
Thank you.

I guess....

Well, I guess I dont really know what I really want anymore, since everything is getting harder and harder, day by day. IT KILLS!
I was excited about applying for PR only when I found out that I needed to work in my related field for at least 2 years to be grated the real PR after the TR. I needed this proof if I ever wanted to renew my PR after it expires in 5 years.
I was just thinking of getting outside my related field after the PR thing (If I ever have a chance in getting it).... sigh, I was wrong... I can never do it... I needed to do 2 years of science related stuff... luckily not with pharmacology because being a pharmacologist needs more than an honors... and since I have no money to pursue honors... well...
yeah... so that is it... no wonder... maybe it is fated really.... that I had to pursue this until... that age comes when I pursue something totally different...
I just have to wait huh?

Haih... can't concentrate for my last and final paper ever.
I'm depressed... yes, its all coming back again.
I feel very useless..
who in the world actually feels what I am feeling? I'm carrying a burden really..

Now, I'm not excited about the surprises that life offers ahead... I'm not excited about PR...
I feel dead...
Why is life extremely hard for me? I cannot describe it but I know no one else feels quite the same.. maybe close but not the same.
The problem with me, I cannot get out what I feel because other people don't want to listen to what I have inside me, what I feel, what negative truth it holds... therefore, I cannot talk to anyone about it... I tried... but I failed..

I'm young I know, but life is tough, it only gets tougher at this age forward...

Countdown

6 days to finishing my final paper
8 days to ACT
17 days to IELTS
23 days to results released
37 days to bid goodbye my love
~> 37 days to settle health check and PR stuff
then... job hunt