This culprit

It was because of this...
It may not look like anything serious, but it was one hell of a pain. But I did not cry. hahaha
And the scars will forever be there... I need bio oil! LOL

Yael Naim-New Soul

I'm a new soul
I came to this strange world
Hoping I could learn a bit bout how to give and take.
But since I came here,
Felt the joy and the fear
Finding myself making every possible mistake

la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la...

I'm a young soul
In this very strange world
Hoping I could learn a bit bout what is true and fake
But why all this hate?
Try to communicate
Finding trust and love is not always easy to make

la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la...

This is a happy end
'Cause you don't understand
Everything you have done
Why's everything so wrong?
This is a happy end
Come and give me your hand
I'll take you far away

Back from the dead

I'm back I'm back!
First thing is to check the e-mail =)
Unfortunately, nothing happening dropped into my inbox.
More happening stories? I shouldn't be infront of the laptop but it's been AWHILE!

Medicine did not work

Ok, finished the medication and I'm back to coughing like a mad person... this morning there was blood again.. and also from my nose... =.="
what is this?

A week plus of suffering

A week ago, on Tuesday the 6th of October, I fell sick. It was just like a normal period when people get sick. It started with a sore throat, which lead to a dry irritating cough, and finally flu. For the first 5 days, it was getting worst each day. Until the 7th day, Monday the 12th of October, it was just a horrible feeling where I felt that my time may have came, I was lying on the bed terribly ill, coughing and coughing blood out at times. With the irritating phlegm stuck at the back of my throat, and the thick green mucus which sometimes turn watery, it was worrying to keep having a strong forceful cough. I didn't have much voice left and everytime I spoke, I would tend to cough. Sze came back from Hong Kong that day too. At night, mom said to Sze as I could hear "Look how thin is she now", and turned to me, you must take care of your health you know?
Without being able to do anything, I just lied there and tried very hard to sleep but I couldn't. It was just too difficult to fall asleep. HAHA. I thought to myself "Maybe my time really has come, but I dont want to die now, I want to live"...
Next morning, I got a jab. How nice an injection! haha, and everything improved from there on. I'm still coughing as usual. The doctor trippled my dose... instead of taking the normal 10ml, I was asked to take 30ml at one go... believe me it was ALOT! But glad it helped.

A new chapter begins

The other exciting and dull chapters has ended.
A new chapter begins, with even more excitement.
Stay tuned for the best has not yet come.
Finally, I put a fullstop to sentences and sentences just separated by commas.
I have a new plan.
A book
=)
Let's all cherish and be happy.
I keep my word
=)

Irritation

I am still sadden by the situation. When will the pain go away?
It's so suffering, and being unable to relate it to anyone feels even more suffocating. But I'm not angry and not hating, that's the only difference. One minute I am all evil and the next, it seems that an angel had touched me, giving me a kinder, softer heart. I prefer feeling like an angel to a demon. Although they may both carry the same problem, but the emotion is different. I have felt both, and I know... I know I sound like I'm talking crap...it doesn't seem to make sense but it does to me! haha
The real problem just started... I have been too strong for the past weeks. Trying to act cool and I cant take it anymore. Being too strong sometimes aint good. It will just be replaced with tears.

I keep falling

One minute I am filled with enthusiasm and the next minute, I wish I never existed.
I am starting to hate, hate everything.
This is extreme, I have issues, mental problems. Reach out for help? Where to?
There is a nice strong ceiling fan in the house...all I need is a rope.
I was awaken...but I have been pulled back into this trap of suicidal thoughts. Is there anyone out there who can really help me before I regret my decisions?
Deep thinkings I have done... it doesn't seem enough...
once, twice... it will never stop. It will keep haunting me until I do it and have my dying days.
Give me a rope for hope.